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Tearing at the Seams

by The Hobby

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1.
Losing Touch 05:36
Look at my reflection, staring back at me Through empty eyes, and worn out lies Ashamed of who I am, and envious of who I'll never be Tigers waiting in their dens A hardened road to run, of obstacles to overcome And longing to be someone, it all seems to be too much A journey that's filled with dread, postcards that are never read And after all is done and said, I feel I'm losing touch Look at the life to be lived, and everything that'll never happen A walk in the garden of decay Wait for a sign or a shimmer of hope, that everything will improve But things always stay this way You know you will be all alone right from the start All gone, been here for far too long It seems I do everything wrong The regrets of yesterday come back and haunt me and make me pay There's so much left to say, all put into forgotten song A long hard road to run, of obstacles to overcome And longing to be someone, it all seems to be too much A journey that's filled with dread, postcards that're never read And after all is done and said, I feel I'm losing touch I'm losing touch.
2.
Mistakes 03:37
Blood pumping in your ears, sweat dripping from your pores Forgetting everything you know and hating to the core That what you do is bliss, and you just can't make it stop Doing everything you can right now to make it to the top But the rhythm starts to shake the foundation of your soul Ignore the familiar ache, keep on taking 'till you're full Your voices match in perfect harmony As your breaths grow quick and time slows down, you can't turn back now Take away the future, take away the pain See yourself falling into the other lane Ignore all the sickness that your mind has devised Ignore the hatred kept away, keep your eyes on the prize But now the light fades to black, the good disappears Embrace your numbness deny what's happening here As you take away the future, take away the pain Lose everything you had, as you keep yourself sane Fast forward past the talking parts, they never seem to be Quite as good as what comes next, the will to be set free Rocking bodies back and forth, exchanging breaths with every push Just say it how it always is, don't beat around the bush Take away the future, take away the pain See yourself falling into the other lane Ignore all the sickness that your mind has devised Ignore the hatred kept away, keep your eyes on the prize But now the light fades to black, the good disappears Embrace your numbness deny what's happening here As you take away the future, take away the pain Lose everything you had, as you keep yourself sane When it all seems like it's just too much Just tearing at the seams Come again another time, come relive your dreams Of passion in a foreign bed, with someone you don't know Take it back to where it starts Give it time to grow, into something so shallow Take it back and scream, "oh no, no, no."
3.
Push & Pull 03:51
Walk on in Try to see through the maze, attempt to wade through the maze Exposed skin Drunk girls losing their minds, like they've got nothing to hide All on a whim Grab a drink, set it down, leave it uncovered for now Someone walks up behind you, they're beside you Taking you for a fool The world's spinning at a faster pace, but You know inside is the special place, where This is all acceptable It's all just push and pull Take a sip of the drink Piece together the night, too hard to think Talk to a girl She's got a nice smile, she makes your head twirl Take it outside All the scenes blur together, losing track of the time The feeling of false love is in the air, But you know you're letting loose tonight, too high to care Look back in such despair, at The life you had, now it's up in the air, you are Feeling bad because you made a mistake, you were Thinking with your heart but not with your brain, but now The world's spinning at a faster pace, and You know inside, that this is the special place where This is all perfectly acceptable It all starts here with the push and pull of the doors.
4.
Floor 03:49
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I tried to ignore the things that haunt me everyday That seek me out, torture, make me pay As days go by, reality seems to blur into a dream I'm tearing at the seams It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real I lied to me about the things that I hold dear As I seem to succumb to my greatest fear But the fact of it is, is that it never stops, it never stops, it never- It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real I look in the mirror, and see the silhouette of who I used to be To try and run away, and chase something that I'll never have someday It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real As this grows into something where I'll never have control I'll just sit and wait for change, and see that it all stays the same It stays the same.
6.
Nighttime 05:28
The rhythm of the wheels, as life abandons shape Skip to something new, no one ever sees the fake, but me Nighttime lights up my days Helps me to count the ways The reality of it all, is that it's just begun I can try to turn away, but it won't let me run I can dream of escape, of a life I'll never see That'll haunt me when I wake, the attempt to be free I long for sleep, because my dreams are better than reality It seems I'm one step away from knowing what it is like to break The reality of it all, is that it's just begun I can try to turn away, but it won't let me run I can dream of escape, in a life I'll never see That'll haunt me when I wake, the attempt to be free The car is full of life and love, escape from destiny All this time, why can't that be me? And the reality of it all, is that it's all just begun I can try to turn away, but it'll never let me run I still dream of escape, of a life I'll never see It'll haunt me when I wake, all these attempts to be free Why me? Why can't that be me?
7.
Wake-Up Call 01:04
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8.
Shot 04:25
A million ways to fall apart, a million ways are said A million ways to exacerbate these emotions in my head Perhaps there's an alternate ending, some chance to see a light Another way to see the day, there's some kind of end in sight This is not where the story ends There's got to be some way out of this, some way to make amends A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed Consider this a wake-up call, to be weary and warned The time to act is now, this isn't fixing itself somehow The will to be somewhere removed, a place where the breathing can't go A choir of pleas, singing in dissonant unison, "You know that you're not alone" This is not where the story ends There's got to be some way out of this, some way to make amends A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed Consider this a wake-up call, to be weary and warned The time to act is slipping away, the time to recognize the debts unpaid The time to act is long passed, this life was never built to last As I spiral down this hole that I've dug myself into tonight I realize there's a million ways to end this one shot that I had at a life.
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10.
Here to Stay 04:02
Appealing to reason with the lowest of lows When I slowly realize I'm running out of time Or when I'm sitting in my self-decline, no question in mind Will I see it wasn't meant to be? Taking hold of life with an iron grip Reaching out for something when it starts to rip Try to get away but I'm beginning to slip In a position too different than the one I started with Sliding down Gone away Too late now It's here to stay Wish for something else, you beg and plead You get down on the floor on your hands and knees That something will change, and not a moment too soon But would it really make a difference if you really never knew New ways to fall apart, new ways to say, "Live with this, take the pain Lose yourself, make you insane" Push yourself To new lows Something new That you'll never know.
11.
Adults 03:57
Laying awake on a Thursday night, why get out of bed at all? When everyone's off in the land of the malcontent? Rabid canines and persistent ex-lovers, in the company of the liars' chiefs Painting pictures on the canvas for the fools The covers leave and they run together Out of the dead, pale land Consuming the laughter and the tainted decisions And in a hazy hurry, is this what growing up feels like? Pretentious words for the silent deaf make little of what they're worth Tainted by the will to be coherent But with liquid gold and a flaming heart An a ability to set this world apart Engulfed in the embers of a party long burned out Feverish and empty I still am running After the ball, fresh kicked in the park Feverish and empty I still am running After the future I thought I could rise above It starts to wilt, and it flies away from us Grasping at the things we used to love We fade away, and we're grabbing onto straws As we sink into this glass of age and smoke Feverish and empty we're all still running After the youth long lost in the park Feverish and empty we're all still running After the future we thought we could rise above A burned out star on its cold way out Another trip on the roundabout A foreign youth with a cherished pout Adults too far faded to save them now.
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13.
Proof 04:38
"It seems to me you're never going far" The truth that's yelled from every passing car As we sink into the dirt Children scream and play pretend That once was lost is their's again Strike a bargain with the dealers of truth To suck away my youth, to give my words some proof I start to wander away, from all of our escapades, Left in the dust in the wake of our mistakes This time we know it's all for real Numbers too tired to call, problems that never resolved, as if this ever meant anything at all All locked inside the way I feel What haunts me aren't the days I've made, it's the days I've left behind A lost memory, a choice left to the side The walls you build up will erode with time, but is it really all that different from that contract you signed So many years ago, before anyone could know? All things end before they grow and expand So why not end this earlier than planned? The people you knew all drift apart A torn up book and a broken heart Lose a face in a crowded street Why get so close when it all repeats? Empty threats and a debt to the free All end tonight with a promise of security I heard the wake up call I knew what it was saying, I ignored it all At first the laughter was all around Now you make your bed six feet in the ground A couple months ago you had it under control Now it's time to pay for all that time you stole.
14.
The Message 04:39
Locked in a perpetual winter Nothing grows, nothing grows Ice-covered window panes see it all The big freeze Crystals form on the canvas you made Washed away, washed away Surrounding you in this prison you built, of hate and guilt I might not get out of here The future's all becoming clear Wars rage on in the outside world Away from me, away from me This cold shelters me from the things that I choose not to see This bed is corrupt and frozen In a space, it's too late To rectify everything that has been done to make the people live this way I might not get out of here The future's all becoming clear This is the final chance To not brush off the truth that I ignored from the first glance The message repeats A single phrase knows no end, "we never lied, we never lied" In this place, under this spell, we're out of time, we're out of time In this place, under this spell, I'm out of time, I'm out of time, about to- As I look in this mirror It seems that all I had to fear was me.
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16.
Torn Away 06:31
Wrapping up this blackened gift with a bow of uncertainty Leave it in the pews in the church of the free The rocks that I trusted have now become the rats and snakes As I wind my way back up to the mouth of the cave Notes left from another life, finding their way through All the trees, and their splintered branches, make a path back to you And when the ships have sailed out, and define what this is all about Bury me in the blades, and all their dandruff-adorned ways When the leaves are frozen in the ground, and there's nothing left to save me now Let's run away into the sunken-clouded sunset Together we'll be free from all the pain that's left to give me shame Let's run away, yet always look back, and witness the heart attack Pull me out of the auto-wreck, with tangled vines and broken stems Of daisies that are always pushed, and slapped across the face Throughout my youth, it seems I'm never free As much as I can hope to believe, to believe You knew you would be all alone, right from the start When the leaves are frozen in the ground, and there's nothing left to save me now Let's run away into the sunken-clouded sunset Together we'll be free from all the pain that's left to give me fame Let's run away, yet always look back, and witness the heart attack My words, they come in gasps of air through tightly-sealed lips Aboard a weakened soul and beaten bones, escaping Death's cold kiss See the broken sidewalk leads away, to the dawn of another day With no horizon and a faded past It makes me see that I've been torn away. ~end~

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My debut album. Work on this started when I started The Hobby in 2012, and now it's finally finished and released out into the world. I sincerely hope you enjoy. Go hug a loved-one. Thank you for listening.

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released April 28, 2015

Gabe Massey - writing, performing, mixing, mastering, artwork

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My friends for offering ideas and criticisms, my emotions for giving me writing inspiration, and everyone along the way for being in my life and listening to my music and supporting it. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for all of you people/things.

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