Tearing at the Seams

by The Hobby

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My debut album. Work on this started when I started The Hobby in 2012, and now it's finally finished and released out into the world. I sincerely hope you enjoy. Go hug a loved-one. Thank you for listening.

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released April 28, 2015

Gabe Massey - writing, performing, mixing, mastering, artwork

Thank you:
My friends for offering ideas and criticisms, my emotions for giving me writing inspiration, and everyone along the way for being in my life and listening to my music and supporting it. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for all of you people/things.

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The Hobby Wenatchee, Washington

Started in 2012, The Hobby is a music project where I rock out and write sad words to sad melodies.

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Track Name: Losing Touch
Look at my reflection, staring back at me
Through empty eyes, and worn out lies
Ashamed of who I am, and envious of who I'll never be
Tigers waiting in their dens

A hardened road to run, of obstacles to overcome
And longing to be someone, it all seems to be too much
A journey that's filled with dread, postcards that are never read
And after all is done and said, I feel I'm losing touch

Look at the life to be lived, and everything that'll never happen
A walk in the garden of decay
Wait for a sign or a shimmer of hope, that everything will improve
But things always stay this way

You know you will be all alone right from the start

All gone, been here for far too long
It seems I do everything wrong
The regrets of yesterday come back and haunt me and make me pay
There's so much left to say, all put into forgotten song

A long hard road to run, of obstacles to overcome
And longing to be someone, it all seems to be too much
A journey that's filled with dread, postcards that're never read
And after all is done and said, I feel I'm losing touch

I'm losing touch.
Track Name: Mistakes
Blood pumping in your ears, sweat dripping from your pores
Forgetting everything you know and hating to the core
That what you do is bliss, and you just can't make it stop
Doing everything you can right now to make it to the top

But the rhythm starts to shake the foundation of your soul
Ignore the familiar ache, keep on taking 'till you're full
Your voices match in perfect harmony
As your breaths grow quick and time slows down, you can't turn back now

Take away the future, take away the pain
See yourself falling into the other lane
Ignore all the sickness that your mind has devised
Ignore the hatred kept away, keep your eyes on the prize

But now the light fades to black, the good disappears
Embrace your numbness deny what's happening here
As you take away the future, take away the pain
Lose everything you had, as you keep yourself sane

Fast forward past the talking parts, they never seem to be
Quite as good as what comes next, the will to be set free
Rocking bodies back and forth, exchanging breaths with every push
Just say it how it always is, don't beat around the bush

Take away the future, take away the pain
See yourself falling into the other lane
Ignore all the sickness that your mind has devised
Ignore the hatred kept away, keep your eyes on the prize

But now the light fades to black, the good disappears
Embrace your numbness deny what's happening here
As you take away the future, take away the pain
Lose everything you had, as you keep yourself sane

When it all seems like it's just too much
Just tearing at the seams
Come again another time, come relive your dreams
Of passion in a foreign bed, with someone you don't know
Take it back to where it starts
Give it time to grow, into something so shallow
Take it back and scream, "oh no, no, no."
Track Name: Push & Pull
Walk on in
Try to see through the maze, attempt to wade through the maze
Exposed skin
Drunk girls losing their minds, like they've got nothing to hide

All on a whim
Grab a drink, set it down, leave it uncovered for now
Someone walks up behind you, they're beside you
Taking you for a fool

The world's spinning at a faster pace, but
You know inside is the special place, where
This is all acceptable
It's all just push and pull

Take a sip of the drink
Piece together the night, too hard to think
Talk to a girl
She's got a nice smile, she makes your head twirl

Take it outside
All the scenes blur together, losing track of the time
The feeling of false love is in the air,
But you know you're letting loose tonight, too high to care

Look back in such despair, at
The life you had, now it's up in the air, you are
Feeling bad because you made a mistake, you were
Thinking with your heart but not with your brain, but now

The world's spinning at a faster pace, and
You know inside, that this is the special place where
This is all perfectly acceptable

It all starts here with the push and pull of the doors.
Track Name: Floor
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Track Name: Stays the Same
I tried to ignore the things that haunt me everyday
That seek me out, torture, make me pay
As days go by, reality seems to blur into a dream
I'm tearing at the seams

It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away
Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real

I lied to me about the things that I hold dear
As I seem to succumb to my greatest fear
But the fact of it is, is that it never stops, it never stops, it never-

It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away
Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real
I look in the mirror, and see the silhouette of who I used to be
To try and run away, and chase something that I'll never have someday

It all goes dark, and the things I really wished for fade away
Accepting everything I feel, if in fact any of it's real
As this grows into something where I'll never have control
I'll just sit and wait for change, and see that it all stays the same

It stays the same.
Track Name: Nighttime
The rhythm of the wheels, as life abandons shape
Skip to something new, no one ever sees the fake, but me

Nighttime lights up my days
Helps me to count the ways

The reality of it all, is that it's just begun
I can try to turn away, but it won't let me run
I can dream of escape, of a life I'll never see
That'll haunt me when I wake, the attempt to be free

I long for sleep, because my dreams are better than reality
It seems I'm one step away from knowing what it is like to break

The reality of it all, is that it's just begun
I can try to turn away, but it won't let me run
I can dream of escape, in a life I'll never see
That'll haunt me when I wake, the attempt to be free

The car is full of life and love, escape from destiny
All this time, why can't that be me?

And the reality of it all, is that it's all just begun
I can try to turn away, but it'll never let me run
I still dream of escape, of a life I'll never see
It'll haunt me when I wake, all these attempts to be free

Why me?
Why can't that be me?
Track Name: Wake-Up Call
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Track Name: Shot
A million ways to fall apart, a million ways are said
A million ways to exacerbate these emotions in my head
Perhaps there's an alternate ending, some chance to see a light
Another way to see the day, there's some kind of end in sight

This is not where the story ends
There's got to be some way out of this, some way to make amends
A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed
Consider this a wake-up call, to be weary and warned
The time to act is now, this isn't fixing itself somehow

The will to be somewhere removed, a place where the breathing can't go
A choir of pleas, singing in dissonant unison,
"You know that you're not alone"

This is not where the story ends
There's got to be some way out of this, some way to make amends
A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed
Consider this a wake-up call, to be weary and warned
The time to act is slipping away, the time to recognize the debts unpaid

The time to act is long passed, this life was never built to last

As I spiral down this hole that I've dug myself into tonight
I realize there's a million ways to end this one shot that I had at a life.
Track Name: Tearing at the Seams
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Track Name: Here to Stay
Appealing to reason with the lowest of lows
When I slowly realize I'm running out of time
Or when I'm sitting in my self-decline, no question in mind
Will I see it wasn't meant to be?

Taking hold of life with an iron grip
Reaching out for something when it starts to rip
Try to get away but I'm beginning to slip
In a position too different than the one I started with

Sliding down
Gone away
Too late now
It's here to stay

Wish for something else, you beg and plead
You get down on the floor on your hands and knees
That something will change, and not a moment too soon
But would it really make a difference if you really never knew

New ways to fall apart, new ways to say,

"Live with this, take the pain
Lose yourself, make you insane"

Push yourself
To new lows
Something new
That you'll never know.
Track Name: Adults
Laying awake on a Thursday night, why get out of bed at all?
When everyone's off in the land of the malcontent?
Rabid canines and persistent ex-lovers, in the company of the liars' chiefs
Painting pictures on the canvas for the fools

The covers leave and they run together
Out of the dead, pale land
Consuming the laughter and the tainted decisions
And in a hazy hurry, is this what growing up feels like?

Pretentious words for the silent deaf make little of what they're worth
Tainted by the will to be coherent
But with liquid gold and a flaming heart
An a ability to set this world apart
Engulfed in the embers of a party long burned out

Feverish and empty I still am running
After the ball, fresh kicked in the park
Feverish and empty I still am running
After the future I thought I could rise above

It starts to wilt, and it flies away from us
Grasping at the things we used to love
We fade away, and we're grabbing onto straws
As we sink into this glass of age and smoke

Feverish and empty we're all still running
After the youth long lost in the park
Feverish and empty we're all still running
After the future we thought we could rise above

A burned out star on its cold way out
Another trip on the roundabout
A foreign youth with a cherished pout

Adults too far faded to save them now.
Track Name: Empty Threats
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Track Name: Proof
"It seems to me you're never going far"
The truth that's yelled from every passing car
As we sink into the dirt

Children scream and play pretend
That once was lost is their's again
Strike a bargain with the dealers of truth
To suck away my youth, to give my words some proof

I start to wander away, from all of our escapades,
Left in the dust in the wake of our mistakes
This time we know it's all for real

Numbers too tired to call, problems that never resolved, as if this ever meant anything at all
All locked inside the way I feel

What haunts me aren't the days I've made, it's the days I've left behind
A lost memory, a choice left to the side
The walls you build up will erode with time, but is it really all that different from that contract you signed
So many years ago, before anyone could know?

All things end before they grow and expand
So why not end this earlier than planned?

The people you knew all drift apart
A torn up book and a broken heart
Lose a face in a crowded street
Why get so close when it all repeats?

Empty threats and a debt to the free
All end tonight with a promise of security
I heard the wake up call
I knew what it was saying, I ignored it all

At first the laughter was all around
Now you make your bed six feet in the ground
A couple months ago you had it under control

Now it's time to pay for all that time you stole.
Track Name: The Message
Locked in a perpetual winter
Nothing grows, nothing grows
Ice-covered window panes see it all
The big freeze

Crystals form on the canvas you made
Washed away, washed away
Surrounding you in this prison you built, of hate and guilt

I might not get out of here
The future's all becoming clear

Wars rage on in the outside world
Away from me, away from me
This cold shelters me from the things that I choose not to see

This bed is corrupt and frozen
In a space, it's too late
To rectify everything that has been done to make the people live this way

I might not get out of here
The future's all becoming clear
This is the final chance
To not brush off the truth that I ignored from the first glance

The message repeats

A single phrase knows no end, "we never lied, we never lied"
In this place, under this spell, we're out of time, we're out of time

In this place, under this spell, I'm out of time, I'm out of time, about to-

As I look in this mirror
It seems that all I had to fear was me.
Track Name: Coming to Terms
alone.
Track Name: Torn Away
Wrapping up this blackened gift with a bow of uncertainty
Leave it in the pews in the church of the free
The rocks that I trusted have now become the rats and snakes
As I wind my way back up to the mouth of the cave

Notes left from another life, finding their way through
All the trees, and their splintered branches, make a path back to you
And when the ships have sailed out, and define what this is all about
Bury me in the blades, and all their dandruff-adorned ways

When the leaves are frozen in the ground, and there's nothing left to save me now
Let's run away into the sunken-clouded sunset
Together we'll be free from all the pain that's left to give me shame
Let's run away, yet always look back, and witness the heart attack

Pull me out of the auto-wreck, with tangled vines and broken stems
Of daisies that are always pushed, and slapped across the face
Throughout my youth, it seems I'm never free
As much as I can hope to believe, to believe

You knew you would be all alone, right from the start

When the leaves are frozen in the ground, and there's nothing left to save me now
Let's run away into the sunken-clouded sunset
Together we'll be free from all the pain that's left to give me fame
Let's run away, yet always look back, and witness the heart attack

My words, they come in gasps of air through tightly-sealed lips
Aboard a weakened soul and beaten bones, escaping Death's cold kiss
See the broken sidewalk leads away, to the dawn of another day
With no horizon and a faded past

It makes me see that I've been torn away.

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