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Open Up
03:51
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I miss my friends
They just had to know
They say without the pain, you're never gonna grow
The summer's soaked in blood on the side of the road
The light's been flickering for years, it chills me to the bone
I'm standing on the surface of a lake that's six feet deep
Ignoring all the signs of a repeating history
I have all these ideas for what the afterlife will be
Happiness has never been one to lay down at my feet
WHY?
Am I so far from grace that my words do not resonate?
Talking to the walls so that my actions demonstrate the consequence of reaching out to memories of sand
Crumbling to pieces in the arms of the damned
"Open up a bit," they said
"Let it all out, unload you're negativity in any amount."
So I guess this is the longform, the words I left unsaid
Describing how it feels to think you're better off dead
WHY?
So this is what it feels like to be stranded in the waste
This is what it feels like to be gone without a trace
This is what it feels like when I open up the gates, and tell you to your face
What a goddamn mistake.
*So live a little and leave your bed, so we can make it to the end
The wave is coming, just take it slow, and you can wake up in the cold below
The lights gone, I'll make you wait so we can set the story straight
I'll open up and see your face.
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Ashes Fall
04:30
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Ashes fall, ashes fall
From a yellow September sky
When we shackled our minds and kissed the ground, praise be that we're still alive
Hear the sound, hear the sound
Of a southern water run
Do you feel left out when they put out the fires and left you to burn in the sun?
When I saw the bodies in the water I knew that I'd been saved
Pulled out from the cycle of ever-crushing waves
But as I walked into the forest the Heavens were licked by flames
In this moment I had found God's embrace
Ashes fall, ashes fall
On a sleepy Summer town
The nine-to-fives all get out and they bring their kids around
Raise your hands, raise your hands
How blessed our Father be!
He blankets our homes in breathable smoke, and lulls us all to sleep
You had cried at the thought of us together, how little did you see?
For once we grace the clouds we'll finally be free
But you had made a nest in my head, and you never saw the trees
And when I flicked the match you went running towards the sea
*God is great and God is good when God destroys the neighborhood*
Ashes fall, ashes fall
At the burial mound we pray for all the loved ones we had lost on the holiest of days
Douse my body in kerosene, there are actions to redeem
At last I'll become a righteous man atoned of blasphemy
*O Lord, set me free!*
Ashes fall, ashes fall
And we fall down to our knees
The mayor declared the fire's out, and everyone's set free.
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All Your Friends
04:23
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Keep saying that "it's all in your head," that "we haven't abandoned you yet"
I mean maybe this is the starting of a brand new life, when connections are lost, and friends start drifting apart
Swim into the lake, make a permanent home
Cut off contact and accept that you'll just do it alone
All your friends dodge your calls, and make their reasons unknown
It's easy to pin the blame when the faults all mine
All the times when I was careless never signified that the start of the end was just up my sleeve
Please believe
Take pictures of the fun that you had, when you said, "it wasn't 'cause we were mad"
Until you filled up all your promises with hot concrete
Reading between the lines, and seeing truth in the vines
Take the weekend off, skip the headstone town
Drive into the forest
No one can escape this now
Say it to my face, the silence I won't allow
It's easy to swim the sharks when you're drowning deep
All the times when I would jump before I looked at my feet
My half-written words are just an apology
Please believe
I saw the image when she spoke to me, the words were coming out cold, but the message was loud and clear
"Don't do this to the ones that you love, you're playing the victim and your bones are drying up in the sun."
Stuck in silence with my face at the screen is a fate that I designed myself, when I had every opportunity to just hold on
To just hold on
To just hold on.
How's it feel to know you're wrong when all your friends are gone?
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The Reptile
03:30
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Will I be remembered for anything, the sum of my parts?
When I split into atoms and trace myself to the start?
A portrait of crosses, but stuck in their frame
We're divided by footnotes, but we suffer the same
You showed up to the house, but you're not on the list
The gates are wired open, and your heart's been eclipsed
So you put your faith in loving every chance you can take to rectify the droning atmospheric mistake
My eyes sunken in
The reptile's shedding older skin
The price for all my sins
The machine longs to be new again
But the timing's too far off.
And when I put myself into a freezing sleep, will you save all the secrets that I asked you to keep?
Or will you find your way into a separate life?
What once mattered has been warped and lost in time
My skin is drying out
The blood is seeping through a stitch in the ground
Where once there was a doubt becomes a certainty to lose what I never found
*If you can find a way out, you should get out now, before the hand's reaching up to come and drag you down
If you can find a way out, you should get out now, before the hand's reaching up to pin you to the ground
If you can find a way out, you should get out now, before the hand's reaching up, and you drown.*
I hear the voices, they're whispering my name
Until they can let go, I'll suffer the same.
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5. |
True Happiness
02:31
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All hands on deck, 'cause the ship is sunk and there's nothing we can do
Inside the factories of parts that make up parts of me and you
And all the fading photographs, used up and twisting in the sky
I had these stories playing out before my shuttered eyes
I never saw the sea, set fire in the leaves
I just want to be-
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6. |
You
03:50
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Rip the skin off of your lips and soak forever in the shadows of the tanks of oxygen you burned to embers
You sit around and wonder why your friends won't make the call when you could just as easily end it all
Don't worry, if this is the end then you'll never have to try and start it over again
The peak of an avalanche that's too steep to climb with every line
And empty rhyme
If you speak up, you'll start a war
Send fledgling armies to your shore
At the end of the day, I wish I knew what makes you tick, but with every hope to understand, I'd never hear the end of it
You swore you'd never let yourself get in this mess, but now you're jaded and empty just like the rest
You walked into the house of mirrors and tried to get clean but the next day you went waltzing to the bottom of the sea
*You saw the light, and then it faded through the frame
You saw a picture of yourself, and to this day you wonder why it gets so hard to carry on when every day is spent writing what you did wrong*
Cut your tongue out and sew your mouth shut
Gouge out your eyes and tangle your guts
But you'll never run away from your hatred inside
'Cause when the Rapture comes, you'll never survive
*Old film photographs are fading from view, dissecting every detail of the portrait of you.*
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Highway Hypnosis
03:43
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The highway we drove was colder than it seemed, and all attempts to brake were met with no relief
A family was torn, three-fourths of a pack
The engine kept running, but I never went back
I sat there in silence, an iridescent glow
Collecting the pieces of everything I know
The snow covers all, no use in waiting
The body will lay there until next spring
I ran, let you suffer
Tied to one another
I was never who I thought
Your heart beat, then it stopped
And it's all my fault, how you slipped away
No blood on the wheels, no body in the grave
And that should've been me, 'cause four is a crowd but three's company
Be buried in the ice and the sleet and the rain, I'd feel it in my core, blood freezing in my veins
I'm not sure which is worse, bear witness to the crime or listen to the screams from a face in the night
But make no mistake, I understand the catch
I can bring life into this world
And I can take it back
And it's all my fault, how you withered away
No memories of steel, no body in the grave
I'm a coward in my cave
I can grant life, I can take it away
I ran, let you suffer
Tied to one another
I was never who I thought
Your heart beat and I became everything I'm not.
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Alkaline
03:28
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I've got my hatred dug in deep, I've got this barrel at my feet
Crack my head, wind up dead
I've read the stories that they wrote, retrace the happiness I stole
Alkaline, lose my shine inside this tomb
Read the news! Read the news!
I'm in a state of navy blue, and though I know the facts I'd rather keep it in rearview
Come inside! Come inside!
I really have nothing to hide, I wear it on my sleeve but if you ask I'll lie and look you in your eyes
I've seen the shores of wanting more, I've had this demon at my door
Calling me to the sea
I've been wanting a way out more than I care to talk about
Ebb and flow, so it goes, I know it's soon
*I know I tried to see the light, I know I tried to make this right
I know I tried to let it go, please won't you make me comfortable?*
**I want a pilot to get out now
I want a license to get out now
I want a savior to get out now
I want a reason to get out now**
I've got my hatred dug in deep, I've got this barrel at my feet
Crack my head, wind up dead
I've read the stories that they wrote, retrace the happiness I stole
Alkaline, lose my shine.
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The Insect
06:33
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The blinds are locked, but the light's leaking through
Reminders of memories that my God withdrew, as he ties them to strings and makes them dance all around
Their feet barely gracing the water under which they drown
But I got a call, telling me that the fall is the hardest stretch before the climb
"It's always darkest before the dawn"
Then why are my actions always wrong?
I'm growing my wings, and walking the strings
Becoming the insect who always clings
I'm seeping under your skin, I'll poison you from within
And spread my disease before we can begin
But I never wanted this, a circle of hope
Retracing my fingerprints to find my way back home
But it's all of what I own
Alone I am the worst version of me, but it's seeping into my time with company
And I wish I had a reason more valid than a "chemical deficiency"
But isn't that the catalyst, it's all chemical
And what I wouldn't give just to feel normal
I can try all I like for the rest of my life, but I'll never see the light
It all builds up to all that I'll never know, when my heart beats faster and my neurons implode
When my safety nets all wither and fray, and I come to the public conclusion that I'll never be
Saved
I'm growing my wings, and walking the strings
Becoming the insect who always clings
I'm seeping under your skin, I'll poison you from within
And spread my disease before we can begin
But I never wanted this, a circle of hope
Retracing my fingerprints to find my way back home
But it's all that I will ever know.
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10. |
Death Comes Knocking
03:41
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We were running in circles, but the Man came by to slow it down
And the farther I get, how sure I am to hit the ground
But I know that it's working, the pill I don't ingest
And every day of silence is a trip into the West
I see your horizon, it's your song I hear
The pathway I need to take has never been clear
But every time I wake up, I'm still alive,but darling don't you close your eyes
The secrets we shared late that night on the couch were half-baked memos, it's nothing to worry about
I know that it seems insincere to cover up holes in the boards on the pier
In every dream I die, but I've never felt more alive
If I've ever been sick, I've never found a cure
In times of rapture, I've never been pure
Now monsters are stirring inside this dead machine
And pyros are looking to bathe in gasoline
But somewhere inside is this picture I found
And when I fall asleep, I'm in the background
With every mistake, I'm digging this hole
I want to see light in the dark
I want to make amends with the hole in my heart
And when death comes knocking, I know that I can start.
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11. |
Too Good
03:00
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I wish I had the time to write the songs you like to hear
I wanna fill the gap with hopeless words, never that clear
I'll change to make it better, circling now, forever
One day we'll reach the center, and spiral out again
I want to be heard the way you are, to be shown your favorite scars, from the plain to the bizarre, so it goes
I wish that the clouds would part my way so it's summer everyday, until the next torrential rain, so
I'll wait until the time is right to pander to your ears
I wanna cleanse the earth and shake itself of this veneer
Beauty in the beholder, fine wine is better older
Your ghost is never colder, you were my only friend'
Take off all the clothes you never liked
Fill up all the empty space at night
I wish that you'd see yourself how I see you
Too good to be true
*I never meant what I said, oh won't you meet me in the red
Empty words from an empty head, and now we're bathed in dark again*
I think I'd be lost without you
I wish I wasn't stuck into my ways, but it's winter everyday, so I'll sit and pray for rain to come
But I know it won't.
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12. |
Fever Dream
04:42
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It's all a lie, the flickering doorstep light still lingers
Afraid to find the answers behind grasping fingers
Shut your eyes, don't come any closer, this is realized
Wave goodbye, the cold of the night, the blade of the knife
I counted all the days until the neurons sung their praise
Wrapped around the filter of a cigarette in vain
Holy clothes and ancient prose will find a way to end the cycle of recycled words the dripped from every pen
And in the end, we'll find our way back home
The basement boards, warped and bent how you remembered
Close the door reeking of every November
Tie the cord, swallow pride and keep composure
I adore the sweeping sense the night is over
I crossed out all my T's and placed a dot on every I
To try to circumvent the possibilities I might wake up from this fever dream and land straight on my feet
The hope is gone, the scriptures' wrong, I'm pacing towards the start of my last lea-
The world spins until its axis comes undone
Deep inside this place collects all I have won
An empty room, aligned with four walls, peeling thin
This manufactured concept that I've become my sins
It's easy to get caught up in the terror on your face, as you come to find the king was floating in the pouring rain with a nickel-wound apology dissolving in his neck
I hope Hell is just the feeling of a memory that I will forget
I will forget.
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13. |
Shot
07:12
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A million ways to fall apart, a million ways are said
A million ways to exacerbate these emotions in my head
Perhaps there's an alternate ending, some chance to see the light
Another way to see the day, there's some kind of end in sight
This is not where the story ends, there's gotta be some way out of this, some way to make amends
A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed, consider this a wake-up call to be weary and warned
The time to act is now, this isn't fixing itself somehow
The will to be somewhere removed, a place where the breathing can't go
A choir of pleas, singing in dissonant unison, "you know that you're not alone"
This is not where the story ends, there's gotta be some way out of this, some way to make amends
A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed, consider this a wake-up call to be weary and warned
The time to act is slipping away, the time to recognize the debts unpaid
This is not where the story ends, there's gotta be some way out of this, some way to make amends
A solution to every problem lies in the hands of the informed, consider this a wake-up call to be weary and warned
The time to act is long passed, this life was never built to last
As I spiral down this hole that I've dug myself into tonight
I realize there's a million ways to end this one shot that I had at a life
(I know the light has gone out)
(I'm beginning to feel like I'll never find True Happiness.)
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